Wednesday, August 7, 2019

An Unexpected Meditation Outcome

I’ve been dabbling in meditation for about a year now. 

I have found that it brought with it certain benefits like:

  • Decreased stress

  • Increased focus

  • Awareness of self

  • Manifestations

I love it. 

I usually do meditations from the Insight Timer App. But this past month I decided to do the 21 day challenge with Deepak Chopra and Oprah, because I love them both. 

I expected amazing things to happen. Which they did!

What I did NOT expect, was that it would also bring up things from my past. 

Like, my past, past. 

Apparently, I had been compartmentalizing a few different things that I dealt with as a child (which manifested in the bad way, as night terrors). 

After a week of solid meditation, my night terrors came back and with a vengeance.

I also noticed more emotion. I was crying more, about random things. It wasn’t a usual biological thing that would cause more case you had that thought. 

I mentioned this to my friend (also an avid meditator), who said that sometimes we need to shed our old self to prepare for our new self. 

This part made sense.

The nightmares did not- at first.

I hadn’t put two and two together on the compartmentalization. My therapist did after I had the third nightmare and finally went to see her. I hadn’t been sleeping well, and was done with this whole experience. 

It’s amazing to me that after 20-25 years, the same issues can resurface. Not that it is unheard of, but still. 

What I needed to do was acknowledge the fear - like the movie IT.

So I did, and then something came up that exact day that was similar to my fear. I still acknowledged it- again.

I finally had a good night of sleep two nights ago. 

Meditation allows us to look inside of ourselves, and sometimes that means YEARS inside to unpack all of the things. 

But imagine- had I never done that, the fears that I would hold inside?


I’m going to keep meditating for sure. Because not only does it release stress, and allow positive forces to enter into my life, it allows me to let go of very old problems as well. 

Have you meditated? I highly recommend the the Insight Timer App, The Chopra Center App, and following @charmcitypt (IG) for more info on meditation. 

Let me know your thoughts!

Love & Light,


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